Lost

I am lost.

Where am I?
What I want in my life?
What I really need?
Am I prepared for everything?
Whay is the main aim I come to Penang?
Why I do not enjoy my studying?
Why I give up for my life?
Am Iweird,stupid and stubborn?
Am I still keep the first intention for Buddha and Dhamma?
Where should I go?
Where would I go?

Thank you ,all my beloved friends.

I like to ask questions ,many confusing questions.So in most of the time i will having problems to seek for the answer by myself.In that time ,i will go and start to disturb my friends with all these weird questions.(actually those questions will make people frustrated ,e.g interest or degree is more important?Can i continue studying without come out to the society and work?Using white or yellow light studying will be less harmful to my eyes?...)

Now do you feel want to give me a punch!!!Haha

Futhermore i am quite a pessimetive person . I always think about negative side for most of the time.I will start complaining ,trying to run away from the reality.Then i will go and telling my friends how pity i am ,blablabla...(a long time process ,will do it whenever i meet them ) "sms and msn attack" are the most frequently attack i have been used!

So now you all know being my friends is very hard ,have to withstand with me ,who is a crazy.I have to confess that i really having a quite unlikely character. So this passage i would like to addresed to my friends,especially my close friends.Thank you all for still being myside till this day and guide me along this journey.I will remember your till my last day.

Wish you all happy and healthy!(so that i can disturb you all again.;p)

I love you all ,my beloved friends, muacks.

Crossroad

These two weeks was the hardest time for me in this year...
I am just entering university ,but instead full with happiness ,i felt so sad for my life.
I just realise i am not suitable for the course that i take ,it was a hard reality.I felt so shocked when i know my course is teaching in malay for 3 years!

Now i am at the crossroads,lost in the way.Many people telling me that this is just the beginning ,i just cannot adapt to the environment."Why don't you just try first?"
But i understand my own feeling ,i am of the thought to leave the local university and try to learn chinese medicine(which my dream since long time ago) in china,or going on nursing course.
My major problem is i don't have that much money and disagreement from my father and all the people around me.People calling me insane ,how can i let go a university degree ,my future ,my career on this very beginning.

Nobody understand me ,i feel very happy when i can help others ,etc i saw a blind man in jetty today and i felt so sad i did not help him to walk through the very busy jetty
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I don't want to waste 3 years taking something that i do not have much interest on it .

I am in the crossroad now ,can you help to give me some advices or support?


I will try my best to chase my dream ,please don't questioned my decision when you know i am not in the university...

Welcome !

Hai to all people that view my blog.I am working and using the office's computer now,this shows that i am quite a irresponsible worker ,hihi.I am not really good on using the computer or internet,but i know that i can express myself through the blog ,so i decide to open it.

I hope all the viewers willing to share and teach me.

I am not rise in english educated family ,so sometimes my sentences will have many grammatical errror ,so please kindly forgiving me for that.

I need to go now ,if not i will be fired!

Bye and hi !