Monday, July 16, 2007

Crossroad

These two weeks was the hardest time for me in this year...
I am just entering university ,but instead full with happiness ,i felt so sad for my life.
I just realise i am not suitable for the course that i take ,it was a hard reality.I felt so shocked when i know my course is teaching in malay for 3 years!

Now i am at the crossroads,lost in the way.Many people telling me that this is just the beginning ,i just cannot adapt to the environment."Why don't you just try first?"
But i understand my own feeling ,i am of the thought to leave the local university and try to learn chinese medicine(which my dream since long time ago) in china,or going on nursing course.
My major problem is i don't have that much money and disagreement from my father and all the people around me.People calling me insane ,how can i let go a university degree ,my future ,my career on this very beginning.

Nobody understand me ,i feel very happy when i can help others ,etc i saw a blind man in jetty today and i felt so sad i did not help him to walk through the very busy jetty
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I don't want to waste 3 years taking something that i do not have much interest on it .

I am in the crossroad now ,can you help to give me some advices or support?


I will try my best to chase my dream ,please don't questioned my decision when you know i am not in the university...

1 comment:

ahnai said...

Hi yean nee:

Truthfully, my opinion will be going after your dream. It might be lots of obstacle ahead but just try your best to negotiate with your father, and for the financial problem, mayb you can borrow loan, or apply for china scholarship. Ask from counsellor for those help. It may be good to try on something you do not know where your future lies, who knows the you will like the course after few months. I can be a demanding course. Whatever the choices, it is up to you to decide. Ask your heart and you will know the answer well. It is just the beginning of your uni life. There will be more and more uncertainties and options awaiting you. Confront them and you will grow along with them.